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In that moment,

You held me when I wanted to run.

You should’ve let me run.

Seeing what’s been done.

 

Warned through experience I knew.

Seen the hurt suffered plenty.

While decades of tears,

Recklessly poured of me.

 

I wanted to leave,

I knew what I should do.

You wrapped your arms round me,

God help me, I relaxed,

In that moment,

I believed in you.

 

I relaxed, I rested.

Inside your warm embrace.

I traced with my finger,

The lines on your face.

 

I knew,

Seen the hurt suffered plenty.

Yet I relaxed,

Let you get hold of me.

 

I so wanted to leave,

While you’re arms held on.

I grew weak in their clasp.

My strength was gone.

 

In spite of what I knew.

I leveled my heart,

With all my trust in you.

Only to learn,

Not a single syllable of a single word,

Was true.

 

Though they showed me.

After every witnessing,

What it was,

To hang on to my missing.

 

I might be special,

And I might be more.

And I might be unbreakable,

Denying every hurt that came before.

 

Danny Gunter

03-01-2011