So Unique

“So Unique”

My eyes opened early,
Sometime around two.
I can only assume it is because,
I miss you.

Thanksgiving has come,
And it has gone.
I suppose I have been weak,
But I have been strong.

But this is a Christmas,
So unique,
In its own light.
For it is the first without you,
And I am unsure,
Of if or when to fight.

d
12-23-09

These Holiday Days

"These Holiday Days"

They feel so empty
These holiday days
Magical illusions I miss
In so many ways

Looking for this years trinkets
This year's teddy bear
Glittering memories
Of never there

Shopping together
For family and friends
So many precious moments
Well, that depends

Only seemingly special
Lies compounding lies
Snowflake teardrops
Fall from my eyes

Magical illusions
As insignificant as me 
The magic of a season
I no longer see

Only
Snowflake teardrops

They feel so empty
These holiday days
Magical illusions I miss
In so many ways

D
11/19/2006

reposted

No Remorse or Hesitation

"No Remorse or Hesitation"

What did you think,
would go through my mind?
With no remorse or hesitation,
you left me behind.

A total disregard.
As if I were never here.
For me.
For my tears.
 
What did you think,
that I would do?
As you obliterated,
all that I knew.

Just four weeks.
That’s how long you “tried".
To let me adjust.
To six years of lies.

What did you want?
Or expect to see?
When you took all I believed,
Away from me.

Dg 12/05